Thursday, April 08, 2004
Thank You
Things have been a bit rocky around here the last couple weeks. I really was not prepared for how much time it is really going to take to recover fully from the c-section I had. We're taking things hour by hour. I will be totally fine and then five minutes later be a sobbing mess. The sleep deprivation does not help, but I just never thought I would have to have a strategic plan for getting out of bed and getting to the bathroom.
As I was feeling sorry for myself the other day and crying over the way things should have been, Kenny reminded me very clearly of how many things I had to be grateful for. I was crying about being so close, having to go through labor and being at the end and I could have just pushed her out had she been in the right position.And how there just wasn't anything worse than the c-section and how when we have any other children I'll have to have a c-section and there's nothing worse than that. He then reminded me that there was something significantly worse than that. He said " you could have died, and the bay could have died" . I felt pretty dumb then. He was right.
When I started thinking about it, I realized how many things had gone right. The Doctor I wanted was there in his office on that day. He has two different offices, it just happened to be a day when he was in that office. I had a fabulous midwife who listened to me and my sense that something wasn't right. Believe me, that does NOT necessarily happen when you are in a hospital. The staff was incredible, they went to great lengths to do things how I would prefer them, and when they couldn't were very good at explaining what they were going to have to do and why.
I know that all of the things that went right were not coincidence but were a result of all the prayers that were said for Claire and me from our family and friends. So while I still grieve over things not going as planned and try to adjust to the changes to our future that are a result of this birth, I am so grateful for all the wonderful people who prayed and called and brought food and offered help to us. So, thank you, to all our friends and family. Throughout the last two weeks we have been truly blessed by your caring and thoughtfulness.
Have a blessed Easter
Things have been a bit rocky around here the last couple weeks. I really was not prepared for how much time it is really going to take to recover fully from the c-section I had. We're taking things hour by hour. I will be totally fine and then five minutes later be a sobbing mess. The sleep deprivation does not help, but I just never thought I would have to have a strategic plan for getting out of bed and getting to the bathroom.
As I was feeling sorry for myself the other day and crying over the way things should have been, Kenny reminded me very clearly of how many things I had to be grateful for. I was crying about being so close, having to go through labor and being at the end and I could have just pushed her out had she been in the right position.And how there just wasn't anything worse than the c-section and how when we have any other children I'll have to have a c-section and there's nothing worse than that. He then reminded me that there was something significantly worse than that. He said " you could have died, and the bay could have died" . I felt pretty dumb then. He was right.
When I started thinking about it, I realized how many things had gone right. The Doctor I wanted was there in his office on that day. He has two different offices, it just happened to be a day when he was in that office. I had a fabulous midwife who listened to me and my sense that something wasn't right. Believe me, that does NOT necessarily happen when you are in a hospital. The staff was incredible, they went to great lengths to do things how I would prefer them, and when they couldn't were very good at explaining what they were going to have to do and why.
I know that all of the things that went right were not coincidence but were a result of all the prayers that were said for Claire and me from our family and friends. So while I still grieve over things not going as planned and try to adjust to the changes to our future that are a result of this birth, I am so grateful for all the wonderful people who prayed and called and brought food and offered help to us. So, thank you, to all our friends and family. Throughout the last two weeks we have been truly blessed by your caring and thoughtfulness.
Have a blessed Easter
